i routinely wear my tight jeans
in hopes that maybe someone will
notice that i dont hold myself
up as strongly as they thought.
that maybe i am still a little
girl. maybe i am still lonely.
maybe i just want someone to
hold me today. that there are not
enough little bookstores for me,
not enough friendly coffeeshops,
cafes, pieces of paris with a
hint of a smile and a large
cappuccino. but ive always liked
everything iced. wake me up
before i lose myself to the
rising tide of my insanity, but
i dont like the darkness if
you leave me alone with just a
sprinkle of you on the side.
and also.
im still waiting for the phonecal
3.
Once upon a time I was a butterfly. Free and small,
frail and innocent. Flying away in games of tag.
but that was when i was free.
"you are so pretty," people tell me and
"thank you" i say, even though my mind is saying
no. yes. no. no.
And now i know
You are only pretty when you are free and weak and innocent.
or when you are dead.
5.
my mother reads diaries. my father is never home.
you are a burden, administration. There is
a storm brewing, and your academics can't
stop it. keep us together. and stop teaching
slopes.
1.
once i almost drowned. people will say
it is enlightening
tea parties with gargoyles. by anyimacielgray, literature
Literature
tea parties with gargoyles.
All the love songs I always wanted you to hear
have only ever found their way into cold stone ears.
Particles of nebulized water melted on grey skin like
your eyes, always dripping with dyed diamonds
meant to fake rubies, but they seemed to have the taste
of bittersweet blood instead. I tried to build fires
around your decaying flesh, but granite bones could never
burn as well as paper hearts. You possessed me at the nadir
of my celestial sphere, my universal existence, and I could
do nothing but pester passing stars for bedtime stories
and gaze into lights just a tint too bright for meek eyes.
At your core, you were nothing b
oh, and by the way.
lovephysics (https://www.deviantart.com/lovephysics) / / ~lovephysics (https://www.deviantart.com/lovephysics)
that`s my new account. <3
sorry i only got around to telling you guys now.